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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

so i realized i havent typed in my xanga in like forevers... i was a little distracted when i first logged in only to see a really random AIM conversation that dragged on ... but kinda sad. some guys i have to admit are more drama then girls... oh wells...

the life with the school is a little hard... i dont like it actually... i feel like my life is dragging on and its a little annoying. i keep thinking back on how my life was so good and im in this stand still time in space... *siGh* i know this is only the gray area before my life will blossom into color im sure. so thats all about school... besides that i need a lil more motivation

the bf... really good. i hate to say it. i look back on the older entries only to find that this xanga kinda occurred to vent publicly about ex's ... guys ive dated whatevers...

ok.. gotta study ... more to come laters


Thursday, October 12, 2006

i dont think im cut out for this...


Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Love is patient

            Love is kind.

                 It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

                            It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered

                                       it keeps no record of wrongs.

                  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth

         It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

 

      And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love.

                                   But the greatest of these is love.

 

 

A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to be seeking after the Lord to find her.

:)


Monday, September 25, 2006

so what have been up to lately?? well numerous things i suppose...

a little bit of the working thing... getting situated to the living thing (btw if yaLL live in crossroads... hoLLa if you live in the building)... running @ the new awesome cross road pLace sort of thing... the studying thing... the family thing... and the recent relationship thing... a vegas thing... a wedding thing... watching greys anatomy as if it wasn't a thing... etc

so i guess i would do the normal thing... of putting up pictures and all... but i think i'll just post, what you all have been dying to see... a few of the

hawaii thing

thanks to my lil brother... we got to the airport heLLa earLy in the morning...

first meaL... hawaiian styLe burgers yummies!!

smoothy making...

 

bars...

 

a sunday spent at an hawaiian church

pearL harbor trip...

paradise birds... hawaii's thing...

hanuama bay

pretty huh??

made in the sand when i was sleeping...

tropicaL gardens...

pineapple treats from doLe pLantation!!

waimea bay... white sands... and clear waters...

waimea bay has cLiff diving too... unofficiaLLy... ^_~

this is me... really... shadowy pic... but its me!! hehe

a reaL coconut... and i'm drinking the juice!! haha

shrimp trucks that have the freshest shrimps that are uber yummies!! this was coconut shrimps...

garLic butter shrimp to die for... literaLLy...

jurassic park was fiLmed here... in oahu

karate kid II was fiLmed in oahu... this was where mr. miyagi went bak to japan... haha

i feLL in love with sea turtles...

Polynesian Culture Center

island of merces

 

dancers from tahiti

a day at the poLynesian culture center for a fuLL day of fun... learning.. a luau ... & the most fantastic fabuLous show...

they sold pinnaple yummies with those cute umbrellas...

ate at a eLegent cLassy resturant known as micheLes...

im eager to eat can you tell?? haha

if you dont know what that is... its beef weLLington...

<more but not is to be viewed on facebook, that is... if you own one >

but for now... as the hawaiian poLynesians say... "hang loose"...

 

**side note: my babe is the bestest!! thank you!! this trip was fLippin awesome!!**

 

these arent all the pictures... so yea... too much to upload...


Thursday, August 10, 2006

drama...

ever hear this one?

Once upon a time there was this hamster namedJoe and he started to like this girl hamster...the girl hamster liked someone else but became good friends with Joe hamster.  Joe hamster knew she liked someone else so he pretty much embraced the fact he was just a really good hamster friend with hopes that someday she would realize that he could be so much more... She suspected Joe hamster liked her but because she didnt want things to be awkward, she pretended she never suspected anything and continued treating him like she would a "brother hamster."  Ahhh, Joe somehow became shoved into the category of being like "a brother" -like hamster guy.  However, he continued to like her anyway with hopes she would still someday realize he was really "the One hamster" she never knew she wanted...  Why doesnt the guy just tell her how he feels?  Hehe, because of the old time fact that most guys don't want their egos smashed to pieces and they'd rather have them as 'friend' than nothing at all...

So, one day, while the girl hamster and Joe hamster were chillin' as "friends," the girl meets Joe's hamster brother.  Joe's hamster brother and the girl hamster start chillin... Somehow, the girl hamster and Joe's brother start dating.  Joe's brother knew his brother had feelings for her so he told Joe, and even though Joe was mad and hurt, he will always love and forgive family and gave his brother a semi-heartfelt blessing... But alas, the girl hamster, for some reason, never once mentioned to him that she was interested in his brother.  In fact, she stopped talking to Joe hamster all together, basically throwing out her knowledge that Joe did once in fact and probably still did, have feelings for her. 

The End.

Uh, what kinda girl hamster goes out with a friend's brother hamster without first telling/asking their original friend, especially if their friend is the only reason why they know that friend's brother??  But what I think sucks the most is how she stops talking to Joe altogether as she progresses further into the relationship with his own brother, especially since she suspected Joe liked her... that's messed up, yo.  In fact, that's just MEAN. 

Yea but this story is fictionally based on somewhat real, but not really, events...haha...yea, that makes no sense...anyway, this story is probably more for the fellas who would happen to read this entry with one brotha in particular.  I don't care how someone spins it, what's messed up isnt the fact that the girl hamster and the brother start dating... its the fact the girl never once talked about it to the Joe hamster first and has yet to STILL talk to Joe about it because she stopped talkin to him altogether, even though that's his own brother...wth.

And if anyone tries to defend this fictionally semi-real female character, I will erase you're comment.... but feel free to comment anything else...haha...laaaters. I love hamsters

 

 

 

 


<me reply>

its rare when you truly respect certain individuals in your life...

 

it just so happens i lose all respect for someone who i guess i gave too much credit to.

 

to be honest... maybe i am more hurt than i should be... but thats only cuz its rare when i have faith in people.

 

guess thats just life.

 

on a side note... before you start judging people.. as a friend i would think you would respect someone to tell it to their face. i did... but i guess you wouldnt know that. so in response to your cute little story.. its nice to know people hear only one side... and its funny how your so confident to preach such tall tales. but i guess i should've seen that coming since your so quick to jump to conclusions ... and you always wanted to believe the worst. figures.

 

 

 

 

 

<his reply>


truce.

because 99% of internet blog wars between two people end in complete disaster, i would like to take a sudden step towards peace.  I apologize wholeheartedly for my mistake for jumping to conclusions... i just took a couple hours to think about whats happening and i would rather invest my energy in making sure things go toward better than towards worst.  If it accounts for anything, I was simply angry because the version I got was pretty dark (of course) and a very very good brother of mine was feeling hurt, bitter, and angry at you... so I couldnt help but feel the same on his behalf.  And because I know how good of a friend you are to your close female friends, I know you can imagine how you'd react to one of your female friends if they came to you as hurt and sad as my friend did with me... i'm sure you know what its like to want to side with one of your angry friends.  Nevertheless, it doesnt justify my actions towards wanting to make light of the situation...

That may sound like an excuse but i think it makes sense.  i don't think much harm was done because at least MY post wasn't public for everyone to read, and it wasn't so direct.  Both of us can play the "Christian card" and call out judging, preaching, forgiveness, etc on each other... but point out a perfect Christian for me and I'll be sure to ask them for advice on how to be one.  I would like to humbly challenge you to not be so harsh towards me because people make mistakes... dare I say you do as well.  We all do.  I'm only making this public entry/apology on xanga because im guessing this is your preferred way of communicating.  also, i figure its a good way to show everyone who reads my xanga that i too can be an ass...

 

 



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